It feels funny to be in this place again. The world turned upside down by something invisible to the naked eye. Which way is up? Which line is straight? What are the numbers in the news today? The numbers of the tests, the face masks, the ventilators... The numbers of the economy? The numbers of the lives? Are they up? Are they down? It is a shock to the system. I am not sick with the Covid 19. I am grateful for this, I know I am lucky. This morning it is quiet. I chose not t
This will not define me. This will not define me. These words kept running through my head. Those, and---"What the heck just happened???" And---"Holy Mac!--- Is this really happening to me?!?" I was coming to realize my life had just taken a big ole turn, an exit really, off the path of "normal". It was 10 years ago, the late summer of 2010. I was alone in a dark and quiet hospital room. I literally could not see straight. I could not sign my own name. And my legs would not d
We all have a story.
My story happens to include a chapter about a small clot blocking a blood vessel in my brain stem.
Well- really the actual event was more like a paragraph but the reverberations of it have continued to unfold and be felt in my life.
The week of July 17th, 2010 a dear friend and I were talking. I remember saying to her,
"Jen, I feel like I have a paper bag on my head. I just feel like there is another way to be, to think. I just need to tweak the w